More happy pills please?

I'm one big ball of anxiety wrapped in "AHHHHHHHHHHHH".... these next few days can't go by fast enough for me. I feel like I am going absolutely crazy.
When he gets home we are going to New Jersey for christmas and I think that is what has me worked up.... I'm not looking forward to it at all. Don't get me wrong, I want to see my family and friends, but it's gonna be way too much for me for other reasons, but for my husband and my kids, I will suck it up and go. Just pray for me =)



Yesterday I went with my awesome buddies, Sharon and Sara, to stand in the cold and wait for Ludacris. Thank God we got there early because apparently he didn't get to see everyone and people were mad. So, I got a cd signed by him and my pic with him.





Now, looking at the picture, I see I need to stop fooling around and get back to losing weight... I was happy with losing 30 pounds.... AT FIRST... but now I need to get working on my next thirty. So, it's gonna be back to counting calories and exercising again. Gotta get my sexii on =) But first, I gotta get in gear and get ready for homecoming!! Yay!

Happy Father's Day~

My love and appreciation goes out to Darrell! He is missing another Father's Day with his children because of a deployment. I get angry sometimes that he misses so many things with them, but then I remind myself that he is doing this for them. He joined the army to get us out of the dead end town we lived in and to make a better life for us. He may not be around as much as he wants because of his job, but his love is always here. He makes sure his children always have everything they need. I'm very lucky to have him in my life.

"Blessed indeed is the man who hears many gentle voices call him father!"