Breast Reduction - Part 4

My first post about my breast reduction was on August 3rd. That was my first appointment with my surgeon. Just a little over a month later I'm counting down just days until my surgery.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. It's a pretty big surgery for me and while I'm excited about the results, I'm scared of what it takes to get there lol... I keep having this dream that I come out of surgery and Darrell gets me in the car. The traffic is crazy and people are swerving in and out (like they love to do in Savannah) and we end up getting hit by a truck. The car is totaled and I'm on a stretcher with my chest full of blood from the surgery and impact ripping me back open! I wake up sweating to death! LOL So, yeah, my mind is messing with me... but it will not stop me! =)

One good thing is that I have Staci and her family here to distract me from thinking about it too much, but the bad thing is that they leave the day after my surgery! I'm gonna be in physical discomfort from my surgery and I'll be in other pain from one of my besties leaving... (Side note: thanks Aimee for getting us together!!)

Just one more thing I'd like to mention... On Thursday night, I am gonna burn my bra. LOL - yup! Burn that big bitch to ashes!! Hahahaa... In no way is it related to feminism, which I hear that wasn't true anyways, but it about my freedom... freedom from the physical pain and discomfort...freedom from the oogling eyes of men (which sometimes, I'll admit, I don't mind) - freedom from something I feel has been holding me back... for my readers, I'll be sure to take a pic of it for laughs =)

Breast Reduction Part 1
Breast Reduction - Part 2
Breast Reduction - Part 3

Only the strong survive... or not...

I was reading some responses to an inbox question on my page, *Army Wives Do It With Hooah*, and someone said something to the effect that "only the strong survive going through deployments" and this was in reference to being married. ((in no way am I picking on this person who made this comment, it just made me think))

I use to think this... but I'm beginning to wonder... During our first deployment, I never realized how strong I was until I was thrown into that crazy mess! LOL... I grew up so much and found strength I never knew I had and gained more over that year.

Each deployment has taught me something new about myself and I've gained more strength with each one. We've been through 4 now and I think I know now what needs to be strong. The person specifically doesn't need to be strong, or even both of the people in the relationship... one can be weak, one can be strong, they can both be either...

The strength you need to survive a deployment in marriage or any romantic relationship is the strength of the relationship. By that I mean things such as honesty, communication... trust...

My husband is a very strong individual and I admire all the qualities he has and I wish I could exhibit some of them... I myself am a strong woman in lots of ways... does that mean we would survive a 5th deployment? No it doesn't... we can be two strong people, but our relationship can be weak... a weak relationship is less likely to survive a deployment than a strong one... two weak people can be in a strong relationship and they may make it while we sink...

Just a thought...

**I'm not entirely sure what the lady meant in her comment about "only the strong survive", this is just my take on it. =)